As Promised...warning many photos!

I finally have the photos of last weekend loaded....lots to see, sorry :)

Jordan and mommy saying hello to big brother James.

"Leaving a pumpkin for my big brother"

Listening to grandma read poems and getting ready to send James his birthday balloons.

We remember you James Michael, and think of you every day.

Happy Birthday big brother, I love you.

Me and daddy miss you.

But you are a constant part of our family, every day.
This is how we have chosen to memorialize our little angel.  He is a prominent part of our family, and we miss him every day.  The years have helped to dull the pain of losing him, but we will never be the same without him.  We are so blessed and happy to have his little brother Jordan in our life now.  He is our second blessing from heaven.


The shawl (I secretly wanted to keep, lol!) it turned out wonderfully!

Told ya there were a lot of pictures!  Hope you enjoyed them.  And I am even contemplating writing another entry, with words this time, Oh My!

A little ahead a little behind

I have photos of the weekend, I have to get them up....It was a lovely gathering for James' angelversary.  I cannot believe it has been four years since he came into my life, and four years that I have lived without him.  My heart will never heal, and my life has changed forever.  Rob and I went to see Augusten Burroughs on Friday night and unbelievably he spoke about the death of a child in a persons life, it was incredible.  He spoke as if he had known what it was like.  It was exactly how one feels after the lose of a child, the giant hole in your heart, the crashing, shattering emptiness that is never filled, never goes away, is never healed.  Time goes by and the hole stays.  After a while you can stop the 24-7 flow of tears, the paralyzing anguish, the deep dark depth of pain.  Eventually, the sun will shine again, and the first time you laugh, the guilt is unbelievable, but you do laugh again.  Time will never heal the pain, it only dulls it to the point were you can actually live one day to the next.

New Meds.......day three, fun stuff.  Just want to keep tabs on the progress cause the brain isn't working so well!  Pain still there, but the "ride" ain't so bad, lol.

Finished another Meret Beret, for Danielle.  She likes the one I have made for Sarah and wants one for herself!  And I made another Simple Things shawl  , this one for Michaelene, she needs a little lovin' with everything going on in her life right now.....

I'll be back with pictures later.....

Here we go again

Here we go again, playing catch-up...
Class day

And the prom

Doesn't she look stunning?  He's not half bad either, haha... but then she let's her real personality shine through!!!

You can always count on Sarah to make you smile!
Then came graduation!

They did it!  I'm so proud of them!!!

and it's never a complete celebration without a picture of Jordan...!

Ahh, now that it's over, I can't believe how fast it actually went.  All of my biological children and one step-child are done with high school....on to their adult lives.....only one step-child left in middle school...the house is a quiet place....sort of!  Home is where the heart is, and mom and dad live!  And the washing machine resides and so does the refrigerator and lots of good advice! LOL!

Consistency

Striving for consistency...in this blog.

So much has happened since the last time I have been here.  The Spring Fling was simply amazing!  I am so thankful I had the opportunity to attend and meet all the wonderful people and share stories and laughter!  I will definitely be throwing my hat into the lottery for next year, with fingers crossed!

Sheri, her family and the elves from The Loopy Ewe made the event one of the most memorable and exciting gatherings I have had the pleasure of attending ever.  She is a dynamo with a huge heart and a smile to match!!! Great friends, great food, fabulous teachers, wonderful accommodations, a FABULOUS trip to LOOPY CENTRAL with a whole lotta purchasing going on, how could anyone ask for more!!!  Thanks so much for a grand time!

The following weekend it was off to Maryland Sheep and Wool ~

Enough Said! 


Since then things have been up and down....a confirmed diagnosis of Fibromyalgia, new doctors, lots of research, talk of medications, or not, alternative treatments, etc....
More research, day by day, more information, one step at a time.


On a very sad note, my little brother lost his battle.  He passed on May 21, 2010.  So much to say, no words to say it with.  A long sad story, yet to be told.

I hope you have finally found peace little brother.  Marc J. Wierzbowski

Overload

Seven days till Spring Fling and I am already on overload!  I have mental lists running through my brain.  I suppose I should write some of this stuff down so I don't forget - a wide variety of stuff to bring - from yarn and needles to Beef on Weck....yes you read that right, Beef on Weck.  Don't Ask!

What to wear, check the weather; what I need for class, check the requirements and try and decide; what to work on, OMB just check your wip pile for pete's sake and try and refrain from starting something new "just for Fling"!  And the arrival dinner and meeting all the new people, and the shopping at The Loopy Ewe IN PERSON!...and I have learned there is a Loopy Ewe song, how amazing is that?  Can't wait to participate in that!  I can feel myself getting carried away!  The anticipation is just too much!  I may just bust before next week......I really should make some lists.

And guess what, when it is all said and done, and I have made memories to last a life time and survived laugh headaches that you cannot imagine....I get to come home and get ready for Maryland Sheep and Wool....how awesome is that?

Randomness

Randomness.....I cannot wait till Fling...I may even start to hyperventilate a little bit every time I think about it.  And after Fling comes Maryland Sheep and Wool, amazing!  I simply can't believe that I got lucky enough to be able to go to both events this year.  With all the bad karma lately, this is really a stroke of impossibly good luck!

Happened to score Bugga today at The Loopy Ewe update!  I see four new shawls in my future.  Deciding on four patterns should prove to be interesting.

Deciding on what knitting to take with me to Fling should prove to be interesting!  I have works in progress, but I would love to cast on something new.  I also know that I should NOT attempt anything that remotely needs any sort of attention or counting on my part.  Vanilla socks anyone?  If only I knit socks...no better time to start than now, huh?

I guess I should go attack some of those wips.  See how far I get, then I can decide what's next!

Fabulous Friday

It's Buffalo, April 2nd, and it is 78 degrees outside!  Awesome!  And what a day it's been, great weather, a visit from my favorite little man, Jordan, a trip to see Jon at HOD Tattoo to watch Lynn get her memorial tattoo for James Michael 

and a stop at Louie's for lunch.....

and to top it off, a walk with Millie the older of our two dogs and a "new" used bike that is perfect for me!!!
It certainly is a fabulous Friday!

I did it!

With very little to spare...

Yep, that says 7 grams left....I was so worried I would not have enough.  I am so thrilled that I did. Yarn - Bugga sock yarn by The Sanguine Gryphone Colorway - Bog Fritillary 

  

 






Traveling Woman finished!  Blocking, hoping for sunshine tomorrow to get a really good photo!  Added two extra repeats of chart A...with crossed fingers! 

Next up, another Mara made with this - Tosh DK from The Loopy Ewe!

Cutting it close.....

Only a few more rows to go and the bind off. So, taking bets if I'm going to make it or not.


Traveling Woman shawl, two extra repeats of chart A. Might only be one extra repeat, only time will tell!-- Post From My iPhone

Sunshine on a cloudy day......

Back to the blog....so much is going on.  Most of it not good news.  But this is what keeps me sane.
He's too cute for words...

and I'm so glad he's here.......